''Her name is Jenny, his is Arnav. They were once in love. Their love story was just as ordinary as any other.They got introduced by their friends, went out and spent time together, got to know each other and suddenly realised that they were in 'love'. Jenny could still recall the day, it was her birthday. They had decided to meet that sunny afternoon, after all, Arnav had kept three alarms just to be sure that he woke up at midnight to wish her on her special day. She had been waiting for him for a while when surprisingly, he came out of nowhere, handed her a single red rose and whispered in her ear, "I Love you. Happy Birthday." He had given her the best gift she could ever get.
After two years of being together, their love ended. They decided to breakup thinking that things had changed and they weren't into each other as they had been before. The main reason behind this breakup, however, was that they got so involved with each other's likes and dislikes that they forgot that they were two individuals, two different souls with different priorities. In the process of finding deeper love among them, they forgot their true selves and started ignoring what their heart really wanted. As they say, life isn't like a fairy tale and there isn't always a 'happily ever after' ending. They decided to remain close friends and they both kept their promise.
A year after the breakup, I met Jenny at a bookshop and I knew at that moment that I had fallen in love with this witty, stubborn, intelligent girl. I watched her for a while, the way she crinkled her nose getting disappointed about not finding the book she was looking for.
I knew that I only had one chance and I certainly didn't want to screw it up, so I gathered all my courage to go up to her and ask her if she would like to join me for a coffee. Trust me, I am not the kind of guy who would do things like this, ask a complete stranger out. But something happened to me that day. There was a strong urge from my heart which forced me to ask her out. I didn't know anything about her; all that I knew at that moment was that she liked reading books. But I knew that it was love at first sight.
"Don't get me wrong, but would you like to go for a coffee with me?" I asked.
"You know that you are a stranger to me right?" she answered.
"Ok then, Hi! I am Keith."
She gave a brilliant smile and said, "I am Jenny. I don't know why but I accepted your invitation. Coffee, then?"
That was that! That day was the start for the many dates that followed. The more we got to know each other the more we realised how much we had in common. We liked the same kind of books, enjoyed watching the same movies, loved watching football and listened to the same kind of music. Time passed really fast. Within the blink of an eye, days changed into weeks and weeks changed into months. My love for her increased day by day and I couldn't even imagine a day without talking to her.
I grew very close to her but she didn't. I loved her tenderly but it hurt a lot to realise that I was not getting that love returned from her side. We would speak to each other but we wouldn't talk. There wouldn't be a single day when she wouldn't mention Arnav. I couldn't believe she knew so much about this guy. I knew that she still loved him and her love towards me wasn't even an aota of her love for him.
I had to let go. For months I didn't want to admit this fact but one day I had to face it and I knew that I had to set her free. It's funny, the fact that we human beings decide to fall in love and one day decide to breakup as if we have the authority to make decisions like these. Love is supposed to be something that just happens and doesn't end.
Exactly twelve months after we met, I broke up with her and I didn't even give her a reason for breaking up. She asked me many times but I knew that she would understand one day. It broke my heart to let go of the one I loved but it was more painful to know that the person I loved, loved someone else although she wouldn't admit it.
Two years have passed since we broke up and my heart still hasn't healed completely. I recall all this today because I just receive an email from Jenny. She has written:
Dear Keith,
It hurt a lot when you broke up with me and didn't even give me a reason for it. I tried hating you for this but I couldn't. I now know why you broke up. I got my answer. I am back again with Arnav. All this time I tried to hide the love I had for him. When I met you I thought you would help me heal and I would get over him but I didn't. You have been able to see straight through my soul and understand the depth of my heart. You understood the real me, which even i was unable to understand. Thank you for everything and I am sorry if I have hurt you in any way.
Love,
Jenny.
Reading the email brings tears in my eyes, tears of happiness. It's not that I don't love Jenny, I still do and I am missing her now as I have never missed her before. But I know that I will wake up one day and there will be someone else who will love me as much as I love her. When I find her, I will not have to try to be the perfect person for her; she will help me be the perfect person I can be. I know that when our eyes will meet, I will get lost in them and all my past and future will be unimportant. Only that moment with her will be important. When this happens, I will fall in love and not stumble. ''
Source: The Kathmandu Post
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